Letting go

Today we moved with Markus to Canuck Place Hospice in Vancouver. The nurse who came to our house this morning said that Markus’ “time is short” and if we wait longer he may not be able to withstand the transfer. Jennifer has been doing a beautiful job of caring for Markus but we’ve had a few times where he’s struggling and those tense moments are really scary. 

Markus is comfortable but his breathing is getting more laboured and short. He’s on a lot of pain meds and sleeps a lot but when he wakes up he’s still able to chat with us.

The rest of the kids are joining us this evening and they have a beautiful suite for us on the third floor where we can all stay. We don’t know how much time we have but we are thankful that we will all be able to be with Markus at the hospice and spend our last days together while nurses and doctors provide his care. 

As you can imagine this has all gone really fast for us. Just a few days ago Markus was talking about trying to get to church again this Sunday (we even had portable oxygen brought in that he could take to church). 

Please pray for us. Even though we know it’s going to be so much better for Markus, letting go is so hard. 

“My mouth will praise you with joyful lips, when I remember you upon my bed, and meditate on you in the watches of the night; for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy. My souls clings to you; your right hand upholds me.” (Psalm 63:5-8)